Invasion of the mind / by Randy Ortiz

I re-found (is that even a real word?) the Kurt Cobain Journal's book on ebay. I have always wanted to read it and see what was going on in his head, and how far gone he was. But every time I either find the book and am about to buy it or think about it, I get this feeling like I'm disrespecting and invading his person. I am soo curious as to what is in that book since I heard about it. I remember thinking Courtney Love was the biggest bitch for selling this, not 100% sure if she is the one responsible but it made sense at that time. I have always been fascinated with how certain people think, depending what they went/are going thru. I know he went on with his life with many troubles and questions, maybe it will also go into more detail about his music. Should I or shouldn't I?! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.